The Duke of Death has a hangover, but will stare grumpily at the lit screen anyway.
So, because we're all friends (most of us don't have a social circle outside the restaurant), the crew of Boston's had a bar crawl last night. Because the normal way to socialize involves the same hang-out, the same people, and the same hook-ups, I guess the real treat was changing the scenery every hour. Lyndsey organized us...which seems fitting, as "playing the field" that much sort of deserves to make her an unofficial social chair.
The entire time, I just felt more and more disconnected from these people, aside from being a little nervous about someone skating near my estate by drinking too much. I seriously kept checking--I forgot how much they can put down. I felt like everyone's life-guard, not one of them. It really sucked. And then, Lyndsey decided I was cool enough to join the club. I'm shaking my head a little disgustedly just thinking about it--I mean, she's attractive, sure, but being the latest guy to join the conga line isn't.
So, I left a little early, worried some more about alcohol poisoning, and probably looked like a jerk. AND I got just drunk enough to hurt now. Of Mortal Form--check.
Then, there was the real Bad Idea. A friend--okay, more of an acquaintance--asked me to bring someone back.
I've never felt comfortable with this ability. I can't do it for everyone--so who do I choose? Should I give anyone a second (at least) chance? What will that do? Is it fair to all the others? I've got a friend, Simon, who's a ghost. Nice guy, Simon. Doesn't deserve what happened to him, and we put him in the position to get hurt--so, why shouldn't I help him? I thought that this might be a nice test--if things worked out alright, maybe I could help Simon. Maybe I could help a lot of people.
I'll skip the boring details and get right down to the shocking result--it turned out to be a mistake. There were Excrucians involved. We stopped them, and got a pretty nice victory out of it, but bringing a woman back put Creation in danger (mostly Magic and Murder, but still).
I think I'll help a lot of people by not bringing people back. That sounds like the best plan. I just wish it didn't make me feel like a jerk.
~Matt/Death
